YOU – more than anyone, needs to understand that it’s okay to not move on yet. It is you, who fathoms what you’re going through. Although it is improper to sit still and hang on to something that won’t ever be yours, it is not wrong to just stare at a blank space either. It’s not easy, I know! And you just have to accept the fact that really, it’s not simple to just leave. It just won’t happen overnight, and that’s reasonable enough.
Take as much time you need to heal and get patched up. You don’t have to forget, because ‘moving on’ is not about how much you’ve forgotten, but rather accounts for how much you’ve actually grown. Don’t worry, and just hang in there. Feel your pain . . . as much as you want, you can torture yourself with all the precious memories you’re trying to hold on to. You can stay locked up, and you can cry your heart out. You don’t have to move on right away, just feel yourself, and accept that you’re hurting (and you’re hurting really bad).
There won’t be any easy way out, and you have to understand that. You can just take one step at a time. Don’t wait until ‘you are ready’ to finally walk away, because you will never be ready.
Engross yourself to every throbbing wound and let your body numb from all the excruciating pain. You can close your eyes when it hurts too much, and tear up if you need to . . . just allow yourself to actually live through the pain, and strengthen your heart from all the loss, grief and agony.
Time won’t heal you; it will only assist your recovery. Your decision to finally let go will be the main catalyst for your successful healing. If you’re choosing to hold on still, you can do that . . . you may hang on to the broken promises until your hands bleed from all the thorns and cracks.
You may hold on to the rope of deception all you want, and wait until the skin of your palms get ripped from the pressure and pride. You see, it all comes down to how much pain you are willing to endure. It all sums up to how much you respect yourself.
You can always decide to ‘not move on’ and fill your own pool of agony. You can also choose jump in to that pool and drown . . . these are all the choices you have to make. The point is that, you don’t have to rush; all you need to do is actually sit still, build immunity towards the pain, strengthen up your heart, load up your pocket with bravery and slowly pick yourself up. Rushing to ‘move on’ will only make the situation worse.
There are a number of things that will only get better through time, and your healing process is one of those. Choose to actually accept and learn to not hold back anymore, holding back will keep your hands occupied with what is supposed to be for gripping the future.
Believe that every single step, no matter how big or small will take you somewhere. . . You also have to maintain a momentum in order to keep your pace. Go on your own stride! Only you, can understand what you emotionally require . . . be brave! Don’t be scared . . . at the end of it, you will be just fine.
Taking the first step is always the hardest. Remember this – your first move will affect the rest of your journey. I hope you choose the path that will serve you right. I hope you stop arguing about the things you deserve because; YOU deserve every good thing in this world.
One day, you will thank those who pushed you away, those who made you come up with the verdict to ‘move on’, those who wounded you, those who left you . . . one day you will tell them just how grateful you are, for making you go through all the ache from the past.
One day you will understand that maybe, you had to be miserable in order to appreciate happiness, and when that day comes; I hope you realize just how strong you are – for actually lifting yourself up and repairing every single torn particle of your once shuttered humanity.
- Thought Catalog